Y A N K E E   L O N D O N  S T U D I O

Musings from a Yankee artist abroad in London...

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Journal Excerpt: Time Traveler

(Part of my practice is stream of conscious journaling, combined with sketches and notes.)

So why did I buy Carlo Rovelli’s book on quantum physics? Because I am a time traveler. Or I’ve been time traveling -- the two things are not the same but related. Suffice it to say, I know what it is to travel in time. Perhaps this is why my work, as pointed out by others no less, focuses on the in-between spaces, why I am interested in rooting – or fixing down time. Because I know what it is to be caught in between the spaces of time, to feel unmoored in the state of “before“ and “after”, to be jerked back to another time – you could even say with whiplash by something as mundane as a pop song playing in a store. Isn’t it funny/ absurd/ tragic that all my life I’ve wrestled with identity. And just when I thought I’ve gotten it down, I get dropped kicked into another life, with another label. Without my consent. Again.
No wonder I want to be like wallpaper. It changes the room without being contrasting. Nobody blames the wallpaper. It’s tepid. And that’s exactly what your tutor told you not to be, tepid. 

Are you in, or are you out? 
Don’t play it safe. 
Quiet work doesn’t have to be safe.

I’m not crying over the dead, 
I’m crying over the living.
It’s just that I’ve gone down to 
the shops 
And the notes of a song from way 
back then 
Come up around me and 
I was dropped 
into the in-between space,
unmoored.

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